Some days are just hard. Or maybe it’s the years too. I’m not sure. Let’s start with the days. Like today.
Everything just kept coming. Without stopping. Without any sort of slow down or let up. I’m supposed to be working on my portfolio to turn in for my yearly evaluation…don’t worry, it’s only my first year back and I’m not overwhelmed or anything. I find tons of time to do all the things I need and WANT to do. No, I’m not complaining…
When I started this blogging adventure, I wasn’t teaching. I was just married and moved to a brand new city, coaching some volleyball and taking orders at Starbucks…after I’d been on my own, teaching for two years. The transition felt like a backslide professionally, but a huge leap in the right direction for me personally. That backslide really puts things into perspective for me now.
So no, I’m not complaining. Maybe engaging in a little self-pity…a little “Oh poor me” moment…I know I just need to buckle down and get it finished, but I’m at a stand still.
My brain won’t go any further. I’m stuck on today and that it was hard.
I’m only 1.5 days away from a much needed “spring break.” I’d like to get this portfolio finished before then. It would have been nice to have the break to work on it. I think I’ve written the hard part. Now I just need to pick apart the “responsibilities of the educator’s position”, the “communication and interpersonal relationships” and “professional responsibilities and professional development” portions of my packet and decide how I’ve done those things this year. I’m sure I have, but man, my brain is having a hard time finding it all right now.
It’s awfully mushy up there.
As the school year winds down, I know I need to make this final push and start planning for the summer. And the next school year. I’ve been offered my contract again. Yay! I’m excited for some continuity…it’s amazing that it’s been since 2013 since I’ve had something constant in my life other than my husband and my cats…and maybe my knitting.
I’d like to pick up the needles again, but until the portfolio is done, I feel it would be irresponsible…just as writing on here is…but maybe this is a brain break 🙂
2 thoughts on “Hard”
Sounds like you could use a knitting break too.
I have to agree with a knitting break being a good idea. I know completely how you feel (I hd to write a teaching portfolio last summer!) and I also ignored the knitting, thinking it would be distracting. I found that having a break allowed me to try out different phrases without getting annoyed at typing and deleting them, and consequently getting annoyed that I had to delete things!
That being said, everyone is different and you may be correct in that knitting would be too distracting. Good luck with it all